Could my heart ache anymore???

You think I would have learned a few tricks from my first kid. Ha,, ya right. My little Willie is just as spoiled as Jackie Rose was and still is! Jackie Rose slept in my bed for the first 10 months of her life! I was breast feeding and her daddy was away at war. So I thought why not. It was getting me some sleep and I felt safer having her so close to me. I had decided to stop breast feeding when she got teeth,,, lets just say OUCH! (by the way Willie first tooth is already out and growing ) Then I read all these books on how to get your baby in their crib and how its so much better for them and for the parent. I picked a week and started the hardest 7 days of my life! Jackie was sitting up by then so when I put her in her crib she didn't know how to lay down. She would scream her head off for a good 3 hours at a time. I would peak in and make sure she was still ok only to see her bobbing back and forth fighting laying down and being so tired! But on the 7th day, my baby girl slept in her bed for 7 hours straight and did so from that day forth. I swore to my self I wouldn't go through this with my second child. Man I am a big fat lair! My son started out sleeping in his bassinet for the first 2 months of his life. But I was getting NO sleep. Between him and Jackie Rose I was pulling 3 hours of sleep.. and that wasn't straight through. I was going out of my mind and one night I just broke and put him in my bed and that is were he has been ON MY BOOB and IN MY BED. So the other day I decided this is it. I need to grow some balls and just go for it. My son needs better sleep, I need better sleep, and I am sure my husband would like to hold his wife once again! So tonight as I write my blog, I hear my sweet sweet son crying out for his mommy. My heart aches for him. I know that I need to do this, but any of you , especially you mothers out there, know how heart breaking it is to her your baby scream and scream and scream. Tears fill my eyes, and the pain I felt for my baby girl is now back in full force for my sweet little boy. Last night was our first night of this. It didn't go so well. I gave Will 4 ounces of milk to feed him so that he could go to bed on a full tummy but it didn't work out as planed. Turns out Willie hates the bottle. So on top of all of this , I have to some how get his little boy to take a bottle. ( you all know he has never taken a pacifier) So I pray now, God please give me the strength that I need to get through this week. Help my little man learn to fall asleep on his own, let him still feel the deep love I have for him! Let me feel your presence as I will need to have you to lean on!

Zeta truly is FOREVER......



After a year of planning my good ol' Zeta sisters finally ALL got together for a dinner. The sad part about it was , Kelly is moving to St. Louis. I hate that it took so long for me to get my act together and now she is moving away. But I have to look at it as a new place for me to visit! Ladies I had the best time. I needed some girl time. Leaving Willie wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be. He didn't do so well for daddy. But he was a good man and didn't call and bother me during our wonderful dinner! I can not wait for our next dinner out on the town!

The Hot ladies, me , Sherry, Kelly , Christy!

These gals are always ready for their pictures!

I miss you already Kelly!

Four month shots just SUCK!!!!

My sweet little boy had his four month check up today! He will be 5 months on the Thursday, but you know the military. That's when we were able to get an appointment. So I brought my mom and dad along with me to the doctors. I figured I could use some help grocery shopping afterwards. Willie is 26.5 inches long, his head is 16.5, and he weighed in at 13.10. He is only in the 25th percentile for weight. The doctor said he was just fine. He is just a super tall petite baby. She said he should be about 17 pounds at his 6 month apt. I have started him on solids so I am hoping that helps to fill his little tummy. Hope you enjoy the pictures. My poor little man was a trooper!

I can drink this,, shots by the mouth. What a great idea!
Mommy, why am I on this table, and why are you taking a picture?

Mommy, why is Mamie holding my arms?

Hey man that hurts! You just try to get my legs again!

Can I just have a moment to breath, Please!

You people are killing me! Come on!

I am ready to leave already!

This is what happens when you let your grandparents sit next to you!

I couldnt get Elizabeth to sit still for one second!


The girls playing and having a blast.

Say cheese please...

The old 1/6 guys...

Is this Pams kid or mine, HMMMM.

We are still sooo HOT!

My main food group in NC!

Gotta love the waves!

Building their sand castles!

Willie's first time in the sand!

That baby Bumbo has been everywhere with us!

The guys just chillin'!

What a good looking family!My boys!

My Home away from Home...

This past week the Gazes and my parents headed off to Jacksonville North Carolina! That's right I headed back to my good ol' stoppin' grounds. What a wonderful week it was. Will had an Environmental conference to go to and asked if I would like to tag along. Of course I jumped at that opportunity. We brought mom and dad to help us out with the kids, and to just have a great time! I really love that dad is retired and can just up and go anywhere he wants at a drop of the hat! How fun is that.

The trip was wonderful. It was baby Willies first time in North Carolina. He did great on the 6 hour car drive too! He also loved putting his little toes into the sand for the first time. Man oh man I think he is going to be a fish in the water just like his big sis is! All of us just wanted to relax and hit the beach as much as we could. The weather was pretty nice and allowed us to go to the beach everyday. If time allowed we ended the day in the pool, which was right behind were we were staying. The good ol' BOQ... for you non military people that's the Bachelor Officers Quarters. It was pretty nice. Cant complain.. the price and location was perfect! I had a few goals I had to accomplish while I was in town.

1. Hit the beach
2. Eat at Tokyo Japanese Express

3. Shop at my old store Fanci Friends

4. Meet up with my 1/6 ladies and catch up on old times!

5. Hit Alicia's house and Elizabeth's birthday party

I was able to accomplish every last one of my goals! Thank goodness. The beach was great. The kids loved it and so did my parents. Eating at my good old Tokyo was amazing, just as good as I remembered! I sure did SHOP SHOP SHOP at Fanci Friends. After a year the owner still remembered me... man I can shop in that store! I was able to meet up with two of my lady friends and their families for dinner one night. It was wonderful to see them. Jenn will be moving to VA at the end of the summer... and little Miss. Pam will still be in NC. But don't you worry lady, I already know I will be back for a visit before the summer is over! Of course I cant forget Alicia, she too is a 1/6er. She couldn't meet up for dinner but I was able to go over to her place, hang out for her daughters 2nd birthday, and see Josh for the first time since being home from Iraq! It was so much fun. I also don't want to forget about seeing her 2, almost 3 month old son Jace. Man the boy has grown so much from the last time I had seen him! He is twice the size of baby Willie. That little man is going to be a line backer for sure!

All in all is was an amazing trip. I miss North Carolina and the home we made there. Life seemed so laid back and much more relaxed there. I could definitely see us going back there one day! Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying being in VA, I love being around family and old friends. But you have to admit VA and NC ...... they are night and day! You have major city life and traffic,,, and then you have j-ville. Need I say more. Hope you enjoy the pictures..

Going to the Synagogue and she's gonna get married!!

Well maybe not the Synagogue but close enough. This past Tuesday my dearest friend got engaged to the love of her life, Alan. ( Tuesday just happened to be my 8 year wedding anniversary!) Rachel and I have been talking about the moment she would get married since we were in college. What colors she would like, what kind of dress she would wear, and were she would have the big day. All we needed was her prince charming. He finally came and now they are going full force ahead! With only four months to plan, October 7th to be exact, Rach and her mom looked at a venue and wedding dress all in one day! We think she may have found what she was looking for in both places!!! I was lucky enough to meet up with her when she was trying on dresses. I walked in the bridal shop and she had a dress on. I looked at her and just started to cry. I even made her cry,,, good job Robin! She was breathtaking. I swear that dress was hand made just for her! I wont give any details on it just in case its the one... but man oh man she looked like a bride! I am so grateful to be able to be here to help her celebrate this joyous moment in her life! I am looking forward to all the special memories we will make in the months ahead. Congratulations Rachel and Alan!!!


Hey, I cant see that thing is blinding me!!

They all look so pretty!!!

Ok, I will buy them all!!